Another One Of Those Posts I Can’t Title
It started like this.
I wrote eight paragraphs updating everyone on my health, why we’re not going to have a Christmas tree this year and the fun and festivities that is a work Christmas party - but then I read it. I read it and I hated it and I deleted it. It sucked.
So here we are.
My health is well. The Dr. gave me the thumbs up and said see you in three months. That’s good news. There was even some talk of port removal in six months. I’ve come a long way from where I was back in August. Boy howdy.
Christmas cards are done. I didn’t get to order them online like I had wanted, because they would have been to late. Instead, I got normal every day Christmas cards and stuffed a picture in it. Merry Christmas.
I finally committed to what I am going to do for Christmas. We’ve already pretty much decided that we’re going to hold off on doing anything ‘big’ and that’s cool, I’m ok with that - but there was one tiny problem. Last year, we had to throw our Christmas Tree out because we’d sprayed it down with some cat repellant stuff that did any and everything but actually repel the cats. Including, but not limited to, making all of us sicker than heck. So, if we were going to have a tree, I was going to have to not only buy one, but buy EVERY THING that makes a Christmas Tree a Christmas Tree. Like ornaments. Lights. Stuff like that. Also? I’m not 100% sure John didn’t throw out the Christmas Stockings last year too…
It’s just to much.
So, a family meeting was had. A decision made. This year, we would not have a Christmas Tree.
I hate it.
Other than all that, today was the company Christmas Party and fun times were to be had! It was nice seeing spouses and chatting with everyone.
That’s it. You want to know what? I want to delete this to, but I won’t. Thanks for reading it, even though it’s bleh.
Random Rants for Wednesday Morning
I’m just not feeling well. I haven’t been feeling well since sometime early last week or late the week before. I’ve been dragging, even though I am getting enough sleep and for the last two days, at least, I have been running a fever. It’s the pits. Thankfully, I’ll get my treatment this week and hopefully after I get it, I’ll feel better.
I’ve had a lot on my mind in recent weeks. With John’s job the way it is (and getting worse) plus other frustrating matters I won’t bore you with, things around here have been a struggle, at best. John learned, on Monday, that in addition to the loss of benefits, the reduction in pay and the overall craptasticness of his job, he’ll only be working three days a week this month. I’m not sure our budget can handle it and his attempts to find something else here locally have been fruitless. But we’re remaining optimistic at this point, or at least trying to. I’ll be real honest, it would be really easy for me to slip back into the black hole of depression and I’m not even sure, at this point, if I haven’t already.
To add to the already straining state of things, my dad’s mother (or, I guess, my grandmother) is in the hospital and isn’t doing well. If she were to pass, regardless of the fact that she has stated that she doesn’t even consider me a grandchild, because I’m adopted, I would have to find a way to get to Texas to be there for my dad. He’d never, ever, forgive me if I didn’t - and honestly, I’m not even sure I’d have a choice at this point, which really makes me sad.
You know, I’ve lived the ‘on a wing and a prayer’ life - when John was an Active Duty Marine, things were rough for us financially, so much so, I don’t even like looking back and thinking about that. I don’t want to go back to that. I hate this.
Yeah. Ok. I’m depressed.
And I wonder why, all the sudden over the last six weeks or so, I’ve suddenly come down with a bad case of acne that would rival that of a teenager going through puberty.
Ouch! My face hurts and Stupid FF3 is still driving me crazy…
I write you tonight from Safari, because Firefox 3 has still not addressed the problem of the spell check on the fly problem with Wordpress. Until yesterday, I was blissfully using FF2 on my desktop machine, but I started getting some random wonkiness from one of my FF Add-Ons and when I went to see if there was a new version, I was instructed that I sucked for using FF2 and that if I wanted to use my really awesome add-on, I had to get FF3. Lame-O me forgot about the Wordpress issue and blindly downloaded FF3 - then came on over to post about my stupid face rash and realized I was not being spellchecked - and those of you who know me (meaning, those of you who talk to me on IM) know exactly how frightening that can be.
So, here we are in Safari - because the on-the-fly spellchecking in Safari actually works. Thank you Safari.
Ok, so a few things first, I have a few new favorite songs to share with you, so open your iTunes now and start downloading them.
- Relentless by Jason Aldean - Side note, this song is not only fantastic, he’s hawt. Married, but still hawt.
- Let It Go by Tim McGraw - This song is pretty deep and hits me right there, with regards to the topic we don’t discuss here.
- Love Story by Taylor Swift - She’s a really talented artist and wow her messages are often pretty deep.
Those are my weekend iTunes purchases - I am in the process of compiling a list of great songs I can listen to while driving to California in a few weeks. Oh, I also got the Blue Oyster Cult song that prompts people far and wide to demand “More Cowbell”.
Alright - now on to the ‘Ouch - My face hurts’ portion of tonight’s program. It seems that I might have gotten ahold of something on Saturday morning that caused a catastrophic allergic reaction - and by that, I mean my face puffed up like a puffer fish and my lips started to split open. Now, as I sit here, it feels like my face is going through that 24-hours-after-a-sunburn phase of healing. It feels dry, gross and it freakin hurts!
I ended up taking Benadryl Saturday night in order to try to curb the pain/swelling - I mean, after all, my anniversary was already shot all the heck. Right?
Anyway, I am doing a bit better today I think. My skin feels real rough around my chin and dry - wow, I am scared to open my mouth for fear it’ll crack something and I’ll have a Joker-like opening in place of my normal Brandy-sized mouth.
By the way, so far so good on the medical front - I have decided to change the tag name of the category that contains most of my medical stuff..:)
(I am listening to Relentless right now…Wow, this song moves me…I’m not sure why, but it does (It might be because he’s hawt tho - I will admit that))
I’ll check in later in the week - surely something will happen between now and then that will be blogworthy…I hope…
(I talked to my dad tonight too - which always makes me a little giddy - I miss my dad a lot)
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